Oh if it could've been about me...
If only I could bathe in that light...
To feel the passion that was captured...
Just to be worthy...
But I live in the wrong time, it can not be...
Oh if it only could've been about me.

She came to honor the rat
To bathe it
To cut it and clean it lovingly
But...
They were already there
with their curling bodies
their ravenous desire for meat
They claim it first
They will have their way
She will have to wait

It's there
It's undeniable
It's undisclosable
One of life's little cruelties
To tremble inside when near
To mourn when afar
To hide it inside
It's there
It's undeniable
It's my happy secret

I have distractions
I am distracted
My mind is never here
It's always there, or there,
Or there
My memory is fading
What was it I just said?
What was I thinking?
What was their name?
I'm bored with this

Asleep she is
and so alone
Surrounded by love
yet so alone
Imprisoned by demons
she can't help but see
Chided by voices
so she can not hear
Her genius is dormant
so her talent's untapped
For now she's just seeking
release from her fear
Solitary alliances
she builds and destroys
Yet there are some who are loyal
just unknown to her
Her intelligence and beauty
being somehow subdued
Behind walls she'll remain
until she releases her hold